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After so long, after so much, I've come to realise that many things in life, we can't solve with impulsiveness and ego.

I never believed in one party being entirely at fault, and I will never, never ever hold a blame on just another person and not myself.
I always recognise that for certain things to happen, good or bad, it takes two parties to complete the job.

People always assume things of others. They assume that people will act, they assume things will happen, they assume that people feel a certain way. I remember seeing this somewhere, 'You think, I thought, who confirm?'.

So true.

I guess everything has its way of biting you back. Everything we do, assumptions or not, harmless or not, will always come with a consequence. Just be prepared for the consequence to ripple its effects and cause you to lose even more than you thought you ever will.

I don't think I've ever felt this way before.
There's no anger, no disappointment, no sadness anymore.
But there's this odd sense of calmness, with a generous accompaniment of pain and regret.

After 22 years of living (well, almost 22 years), 12948724937 lessons learnt, and 243523534 examples to follow, I finally understood what it truly means when people say that there is no such thing as freedom of speech. Everything we say, or want to say, we have to consider a truckload of consequences. And after all that's ever happened, I should have gotten to know myself better than this. I think I'm the last person in the whole world that truly understands myself.

Perhaps it's time I grew up for real, and face up to the world. The real world of emotions and responsibility.

With that, I conclude my final post at midnightparader.livejournal.com.
God, I really liked this user id.


Relocated.

And if you matter enough, you'll find me.

Cayo Largo del Sur.
 

Need to save up to travel around the world.